My Sunshine
During the twilight hours on April 20th 2011 I
was awoken from sleep with mild contractions, sensations, as I like to think of
them. I knew. My partner told me it was probably something I ate, and I went
back to sleep. But I knew. I had read very few books to prepare for my labor. I
read Ina May Gaskin’s Spiritual Midwifery
twice. A collection of beautiful
birth stories describing labor as “trippy” and “groovy” sounded like a model I
wanted to follow. I ate well, I did yoga, and I trusted my body. I felt
grounded and primal. I trusted my midwife. Regardless of our common interest or
the connection we made, I trusted her to know what to do when I questioned
myself or I needed more medical support.
By 6am-ish the sensations were more intense … I knew. I took
a nice shower and spoke to my son. “Welcome sweet boy, let’s make this easy on
one another. I love you so much.” My partner rushed around, dropping the kids
at school, collecting the birthing tub supplies. He called my mom who told him
she had really short labor with her kids, like really short. Pam and Muraiha were on their way as the sun rose
providing me with the warm sunny labor I had hoped for. I had no fear, and
gently moaned and road the waves.
From this point it is both hard to remember, while also
deeply seeded in my memory. Hours passed and I let my mind wander. I’m not sure
where, and I remember everything, but I wasn’t focused on the physical, my body
took over and my mind felt somewhat separate. I knew there was no stopping it,
and the reward would be more than worth the work. I spent my entire labor on
all fours, sipping water and eating when I was hungry.
Pam sat and relaxed, trusting me and allowing my body to do
its job. Muraiha lounged on the bed with me, using her hands and knowledge to
help me through my labor and delivery. My partner stayed with me at eye level,
providing comfort, and my mother was there for me as she has always been, proud
and grateful. My big sister was on the phone, listening to me labor while at
work! They all gave me love and encouragement, and my midwives assured me when
I doubted and answered any questions.
My expressive little baby was born at 11:37am to
a room filled with love, celebration, and sunshine. I was peaceful and joyous.
Ready to visit with loved ones and snuggle and love my beautiful healthy baby.

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